Copyright 1997 All Rights Reserved. Sailor Moon is copyrighted Naoko Takeceuchi, Bandai, Toei Animation and some other people. This story, however is mine! All mine. Names places and characters are a work of fiction. Any resemblence to anyone or thing is purely coincidential. Blah, whatever. The usual disclaimers apply. This takes place in the past, the Moon Kingdom, Silver Millenium, whatever you want to refer to it as. It is about what would have happened if Beryl hadn't attacked and everything was fine and dandy. No negaverse. (YET!) To really understand what angle I'm coming from, you would have to read my other fics, Jupiter Knight and Under a Myst. This is based mostly on Lita (Makoto AKA Sailor Jupiter) and Ken (Shinosaki AKA Jupiter Knight). If you don't like them, too bad. It's my story! Mwahahahahahhehehe! (Zoicite?) Mail flames comments and other stuff to me at Ladyjupiter@sailorjupiter.com. Or you can mail me and tell me I can't spell for @#$@! But that's your choice. Oh yeah, one more thing. Everyone here has their Japanese names because that was the way it was in the past Silver Millienum. PAST LIVES 3 Trust, Love, Greed, Deciet BY LADY JUPITER (LADYJUPITER@SAILORJUPITER.COM) Queen Jupiter took a deep breath, "It's true. Your biological father is not King Jupiter. Your biological father is dead." "Mother! Who is it?" Makoto demanded. "His name is...was Murawa Jade," Queen Jupiter said. She half expected lighting to strike through the windows. "You had another husband?" Mako asked. "No...I guess I should tell you the whole story. You have to promise you that none of this goes out." Queen Jupiter said. "Keep it hidden? Like a bad thing? Why?" "It won't be good for the royal family if this goes out," Queen Jupiter replied. "Everyone has skeletons in their closet, dirt under their rugs," Mako said. "Promise me you'll keep it a secret, Mako." Queen Jupiter pleaded. "What?! You aren't even telling me what this big secret is!" Mako was getting frustrated. "Okay, this is the whole story," Queen Jupiter forced herself to remeber, "When we were small, when I was just a teenager, I was friends with your father the King and his best friend: Murawa Jade. I fell in love with Murawa. Your father, who was the prince back then was one of my close friends. Murawa was Knight back then. He was always coming and going this way and that. Well, the night I turned nineteen, Murawa came and visited me. He was suppose to be at a station, on the job. He came to wish me a happy birthday. I was young and in love. He stayed the whole night. In the morning he left to go back to his station. A couple days later, I found out I was carrying you. I told Zeus, the prince, your father right now the good news. He promised to go personally and tell Murawa. He went all the way to the station Murawa was stationed at. When Zeus got there, the station was in ruins. Early in the morning, just about the time Murawa arrived, a fleet of space pirates bombed and robbed that station. Murawa was dead when Zeus got there." Queen Jupiter was softly crying now. "I-I-I was born out of wedlock?" Makoto stuttered. "No, honey. Please don't think of it that way. You were born out of love," Queen Jupiter hugged her daughter. "What about dad?" Mako asked. "Zeus? Zeus knew what kind of gossip and rumor would come if anyone found out that I had Murawa's child and we weren't even engaged. So Zeus, being the great friend he is, asked me to marry him. I agreed because I loved him too, but a different kind of love. I loved Zeus. He was my best friend. After we were married, you were born. Every assumed you were Zeus's daughter so we just let them think that. That's the whole story," Queen Jupiter explained. "I want to go visit my natural father's grave," Makoto stated. "Why?" "To pay much owed respects," Mako said. "Mako, you are such a good girl. Remember, no one shall know this okay?" Queen Jupiter dried her tears. "Why not? It's not a scandal or anything?" Mako said. "Because it would mean that you are only half blood royalty. There are a lot of people who would love to knock you out of the running to become future ruler." Queen Jupiter told her. "I don't care about being ruler," Mako stated angrily. "But you have to. You are heir to the next ruler. You'll make a great ruler and I'll bet that the man you marry will make a great king." Queen Jupiter smiled. Mako couldn't help thinking of Shinosaki. What was he doing right there that very moment? "Can you take me to his grave?" "Murawa's?" "Yes." "Let's go right now. It's been a long time since I've been there, actually." Queen Jupiter admitted. "How does dad feel about this?" Mako asked. "He's adjusted to it. I love him too. Really, he thinks of you as his own," Queen Jupiter said. "Then why doesn't he trust me?" Mako asked. "What did you tell him?" "Shinosaki told me his dad wasn't right in the head anymore. Judge Miyake is planning a conspiracy to take away dad's power so he himself could be king. Shinosaki told me to warn dad." Mako said. "Oh," Queen Jupiter didn't look too surprised. "Do you know about it?" Mako asked. "I sensed it," Queen Jupiter admitted. "Why didn't you tell dad? He'll have to believe the both of us." "No, he has to realize that by himself. If we actually do convince him, he will spend the rest of his life wondering if we were wrong. He has to find out for himself. He's wise, he'll realize something is wrong with Judge Miyake eventually. It's not easy for him. They've been friend for such a long time. Your father is wise, but sometimes he can be stubborn, Mako. You just have to let him think it out himself." Queen Jupiter told her. "What will happen to Judge Miyake when dad finds out that he's not right in the head?" Mako asked. "Your father will send him to a mental insitution to get help. He's a good man. I'm just worried about Shinosaki. Poor Shinosaki. How is he taking all of this? First he loses his mother, now his father too?" Queen Jupiter sighed. "Shinosaki blames himself," Mako told her mother. Queen Jupiter turned and faced her daughter, "What? Why does he blames himself? Tell him it isn't his fault. Poor boy, having to take on so much." "He thinks that his father turned that way because he was away so often," Mako said. Queen Jupiter told her daughter, "If anyone is at blame, I would say it is Judge Miyake's own fault. For letting ideas like that get into his head." "I don't know. Maybe no one is at blame," Mako said. "Yes, just like you, Mako. Not to lay the blame at anyone." Queen Jupiter said. "Come dear. Let's go for a ride." "Are we going to...Murawa's grave?" Mako didn't know what to call her natural father. It didn't feel right to call him father or dad, or any paternal name. "Yes. Freshen up first. I'll go tell your father where we are going," Queen Jupiter exited the room. Mako didn't know how to freshen up. She changed into another long gown, thinner and a lighter shade of green. She retied her hair and put on a bow. *What does one wear to visit their natural father, someone she does not even know, someone who is dead?* Mako thought. She almost laughed, if she was in the mood. It was ironic. Just a week ago, the biggest worry she had was what if it rains the next day. It was like the whole world turned over a new leaf. Makoto realized that the world isn't full of fairies and happily ever afters. "Mako? Are you ready? Patterson is waiting out front with the horse and carraige." Queen Jupiter asked through the door. "Coming," Mako answered. The two of them got onto the back seat of the emerald green carraige. Two white horses pulled the front of it. A middle age man held on to the reins infront of the carraige. They started on there way with no fuss. * * * * * * * * * "This is as far as I can go, my Queen." Patterson stopped the horses at the base of a hill. "That's fine. You can wait here. We will walk our way up," Queen Jupiter instructed. Mako followed her mother out of the carraige. She saw the hill they were suppose to walk up. A lone oak tree stood at the top of the hill. Makoto could also see a grayish tombstone in the shade of the oaktree. It was the only oaktree she could see. "This hill is for Murawa," Queen Jupiter explained, reading her daughter's thoughts. They were far enough from the carraige driver to talk freely. "What did dad say when you said we were coming here?" Mako asked curiously. "He said to tell Murawa he's sorry he couldn't come along today. He's too busy." Queen Jupiter smiled. "Who else knows about this?" Mako asked. "No one else. Just me and your father. Can you keep it that way?" "I guess," Mako sighed. She hated keeping secrets. They tear away at your heart until you wind up insane from too many secrets. "Good girl. I know you don't like keeping secrets, but it's not really a secret. No one has even an idea of this." Queen Jupiter tried to ease the burden. They finally reached the tombstone at the way top of the hill. Makoto could see it was well taken care of. Not a single blade of grass covered any part of the tombstone. Mako saw here mother smile at the tombstone, as if it were a person. There were tears in the corners of her mother's eyes. "Hello Murawa," Queen Jupiter said, "I'm sorry it took me so long to visit. Did you miss me?" Makoto saw here mother pause, as if actually waiting for an answer. At any other time, she would think her mother really lost it, but this time, it was understandable. "I miss you. Zeus says hello. He couldn't come today, there's a lot going on. A lot changed when you left." Queen Jupiter urged her daughter forward and put an arm around Mako's shoulders, "Her name is Makoto Kino. She's your daughter, Murawa. She's all grown up. I'm sorry I never took her to see you before. What do you think? "I don't know what you're doing up there, but I hope you meet someone you'll really love. Because I did. I know you're happy for me. I married Zeus, your best friend. He says he misses you. I hope one day we'll meet again. I won't say goodbye because it means I'll never see you again. I'll just say....I'll see you." Queen Jupiter smiled softly. "Mom, can I stay here alone first? I have some things I have to say." Mako asked. "Sure hon, I'll wait for you in the carraige." Queen Jupiter started walking down the hill. Mako kneeled infront of the grave. She had so much to say, but was there actually going to be someone on the other end listening? "Murawa...." Mako hesitated, "I don't know what to call you. You are my biological father, but not my dad. I wish I could have known you." Mako started to weep, "How would it have been, if you and mom got married? Why did you die? Why did you die and leave me to live in this lie? My father, whom I've known my whole life suddenly declares that I am not his flesh and blood? If you were alive, would you love me as much as dad does right now? I wish mom took me sooner to see you. I wish mom could have told me all this sooner. I know that they never intended to tell me all this. They wanted the truth to die with them." Mako started to laugh, "Well I beat it out of them. Now I know who you are." She was laughing and crying at the same time, "It's funny, three people knew the truth. One died, the other two intended to die with the truth, but now....I know and I won't die until I tell someone else this. I won't be like them and keep this a secret." Mako didn't know what she was saying now. All her words came out like a blur to her. Finally, Mako got up, dusted off her dress, and wiped her face. She took another look at the tombstone, "I'll see you again, Murawa. I promise." She started to walk down the hill toward the carraige where her mother was waiting. "Ready to go home?" Queen Jupiter asked. "Yes," Mako said. Suddenly, home sounded good, cozy. "It's almost dinner time," Queen Jupiter said. "Dad won't let me eat dinner until I apologize, I don't feel like doing that." Mako said stubbornly. "I was right. Why do I have to apologize?" "Go apologize, it'll make the both of you feel better," Queen Jupiter ordered. "I can't believe I'm forced to lie!" Makoto mumbled. "Fine, don't go apologize if you don't want to. It's your choice." Queen Jupiter stated. "Okay, I will," Mako gave in. * * * * * * * * * * * * A couple nights later, Mako woke up in the middle of the night. She didn't know why she woke. Something just wasn't right. It was too dark to see clearly, but she could see that no one was in her room. But she had a feeling someone had come in before. She noticed something on her. There was a flower of some sort on her stomach. Mako reached for it. When she got a closer look, she recognized it was a lily of the valley. That was her favorite, but who would have known? Makoto got up and walked to the balcony. The wide doors were open, letting the fresh air in. Someone had obviously got out through the balcony. But who would climb two stories just to leave this on her bed? "Shinosaki!" Mako whispered. He was the only one who would have did this. But how did he know which room was her bedroom? Makoto looked over the balcony at the Royal Gardens. There were shadows cast over everything, giving them almost an eerie glow. Mako saw one of the shadows move. She squinted to try to see who it was. It was a person in silver armor. Makoto ran quietly out of her room and slid down the banister to the front door. She opened it quietly and walked out. She had to keep a constant eye out for night guards out on duty. They would surely wonder what she was doing out so late or too early in the morning. She walked quickly into the Royal Gardens to the place where she saw the figure. The figure wasn't facing her, it was looking out to the reflection pond. Makoto recognized who it was. Should she disturb him? He looked so tranquil. Makoto tried to walk closer, but made a mistake. She accidently stepped on a pile of leaves and twigs probably left there by the gardener. The figure siftly turned around, alarmed that he was not alone. "Mako-chan?" he asked. "Shino-chan!" Makoto ran up and hugged him. Shinosaki hugged her tightly. He didn't mean to wake her up, but now, he knew he should have. "Shino-chan, what are you doing here?" Mako asked. "I'm off duty this night. I just wanted to see you." Mako showed him the flower, "You left this here?" Shinosaki nodded. "Why didn't you wake me?" Mako asked. "I didn't want to disturb you. You look so cute sleeping," Shinosaki smiled. Mako turned and looked out at Reflection Lake. She knew why it was called that. The sky was exactly mirrored in the water. Shinosaki put his arms around her slender waist and put his head by hers. "Did you tell King Jupiter?" Mako closed her eyes for a second, as if to drive away bad thoughts, "He didn't believe me. He said I was making it all up because I was bored. My mother noticed a change in your dad too, but my father just won't listen." "Maybe I should tell him myself," Shinosaki said. Mako thought, "No, he'll just tell your father. Then you would be in big trouble. Give it time. My father will realize it eventually." Shinosaki kissed Mako's cheeks, "I missed you." "I missed you even more," Mako sighed. "Mako-chan, what's wrong? Is there something on your mind?" Shinosaki knew something was bugging her. "Nothing," Mako lied. She didn't want to burden Shinosaki with any more problems. He had more than his share of problems. "Mako-chan, tell me. What's wrong. Did your dad say something that hurt you?" Shinosaki asked. "Y-y-yes," Mako tried to swallow the lump in his throat. "What?" Mako felt tears building in her eyes. She didn't know why she was crying. She didn't want to cry. She never cried infront of people, other than her mother and father. Usagi never even saw her cry. "Mako-chan, what did he say?" Shinosaki hugged Mako closer to comfort her. Plus, it was getting chilly. "H-h-he said I wasn't his flesh and blood," Mako stuttered. "That's not true." Shinosaki was shocked that someone would tell their own kid that lie. "It is..." Mako started to softly cry. "What? What do you mean?" Shinosaki patted Mako's back. She was shaking with sobs. "My mother told me everything," Mako cried. "You don't have to tell me, if it's too personal," Shinosaki said. "No, I want to....." * * * * * * * * * * * * * "I can't believe they kept that secret for so many years," Shinosaki said. "I can't either. They weren't going to tell me either. If I hadn't found out, they would have let the secret die with them." Mako said. "Your father is very....what's the word? He's very thoughtful to do that. I don't know many men who would do that for a woman." Shinosaki said. "I know. I love my dad, but I can't help getting mad that they never told me the truth." Mako said, "It's like a part of me was hidden from myself. They should have told me." "I'm sure they regret that they didn't tell you earlier," Shinosaki said. "I don't know what to think," Mako sighed. Shinosaki tried to stifle a yawn. He should be getting back. Morning excersise starts at daybreak. "You should get back and get some sleep," Mako said. "Yeah, it's almost daybreak." Shinosaki sighed. "When will you come back?" "As soon as I can," Shinosaki promised. "I'll be waiting..." Mako kissed Shinosaki softly. Shinosaki hugged Mako one last time and let her go. Mako watched as Shinosaki walked out. "Careful of the guards," Mako said. "I will." Mako sighed. When will be the next time she see's him? Will it be because of a good reason? * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * "Princess, your father asked to see you," one of the maids said to Mako. "Okay, tell him I'm coming down. Thanks." Makoto put her book down and went downstairs. "Dad, where are you?" Mako called out. "In the study," King Jupiter said. "Yes? Did you want to see me?" Makoto asked. Everything was almost back to normal with her dad. They treated each other like they did before all the lies were revealed. "Oh yes, sit down." "Uh oh. Did I do something wrong?" Mako asked. She hated it when her father told her to sit down. It meant they would be discussing something very serious. "Of course not. Not yet. I'm telling you this to keep you from doing something wrong." King Jupiter said. "What?" "We will be having lunch with Judge Miyake today. Don't try to investigate or anything around him. Don't try to analyze him. He is not crazy. I would know if he was. Afterall, I am his close friend. Okay?" King Jupiter emphasized. "Okay," Mako said reluctantly. She crossed her finger inback of her. She would investicate, but would also try to be discreet about it. "No funny business, okay Makoto Kino?" King Jupiter emphasized. "Yes, daddy." Makoto said, keeping her head low. "Okay. You can go now." King Jupiter dismissed her. Makoto started to walk out, but remembered something, "Dad, is Judge Miyake's son coming too?" "No, he's still out on training," King Jupiter said. "Oh, thanks." Mako let out a breath. "See you at lunch," King Jupiter said. "Sure." * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Makoto was staring intently at Judge Miyake. She was watching his every move. She kind of hoped he would do something obvious that would prove to her father that she was right. "Princess, why so intent today?" Judge Miyake asked. He was smiling, but something didn't look too sincere. "Am I?" Mako asked. "Yes. You haven't said a whole sentance since I got here." Judge Miyake said. "Sorry," Mako said, even though she wasn't. What else could she have said. "You'll have to excuse her. She has a lot on her mind," Queen Jupiter laughed softly. "Are you thinking about my son?" Judge Miyake asked suddenly. "Huh?" Makoto was sure her face was beet red by now. "Don't think I haven't noticed. It's obvious on both of your faces." Judge Miyake laughed. "Ahhhhh. That time in a girls life." King Jupiter said as if he knew everything about that. "How would you know? Since when were you a girl?" Queen Jupiter asked, a small smile playing on her lips. "I know when my daughter is thinking of a boy." King Jupiter said. Makoto couldn't stop blushing, she felt as if her head was on fire. She didn't like it when they were discussing her like that. "Yes, Shinosaki has fallen hard for you, Princess." Judge Miyake sighed, "I haven't seen him this head over heals with any other girl." "I think we are embarassing her," Queen Jupiter came to her daughter's rescue. "Yes, let's not embarass our future princess," Judge Miyake had a little tone of sarcasm in his voice. Makoto didn't like the tone he had in his voice. It was almost as if he was making fun of her. Through out the whole lunch, Mako looked for any indication that proved Judge Miyake was changing into some crazed person. She found little subtle hints. Like the way he would have a little scowl in his face whenever her father's back was to him. She didn't know if her mother noticed that or not. * * * * * * * * * * * That night, Mako lay in bed trying to think things out. How could she prove to her father that there was somthing wrong with Judge Miyake? Her father already didn't believe the straightforward approach. He obviously didn't get the subtle hints either. Would he realize in time that there was something wrong with his friend? Maraculously, Mako fell asleep with all this weighing on her mind. She didn't fall into a deep sleep that would wipe all the troubles off her mind. In her dreams, the problems still existed. * * * * * * * * * * ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** In the morning, Mako woke up to a beautiful day. The birds were perched upon her balcony chirping their morning songs. Mako almost thought for a second that everything was normal. But reality hit her when she looked into the mirror. She remembered who she was, the troubles she had and the problem with how to solve the troubles. "Princess? Are you awake yet? Breakfast is already in session," a maid called from the door. "Yeah, I'll be right down. Tell my parents I'm still dressing," Mako said to the maid. "Okay. Is there anything to be washed?" the maid asked that every morning. "No, it's fine. Thank you." Mako turned to her closet to pick something to wear. She decided to wear her green and white dress. It was a white slip, under layers and layers of translucent green fabric. It was light enough to be airy and cool. "Makoto, it's about time you woke up. It' such a beautiful morning. Or better yet, it WAS such a beautiful morning. You slept away almost the whole time." Queen Jupiter chirped. She was visibly in a good mood this morning. "Did I oversleep? Sorry," Mako said. "No, you did not oversleep, but it would be nice if you woke up early once in a while to actually see the sun before it was way over your head." Queen Jupiter joked. "Oh," Mako dug into her waffles. She was hungry this morning. Mako forgot her manners and talked with her mouth full of waffle bits, "Where is dad?" "He's in the study with Judge Miyake." Mako almost choked on her waffles. Why was he back? So soon? What were they planning to do anyway? "Don't give me that look and don't you dare talk with your mouth full again. You ARE the princess and it is not polite." Queen Jupiter was about to start another lecture about how it's important to act lady like. "What is Judge Miyake doing here?" Mako asked before her mother started in on another lecture. "I think he's discussing what to do with the extra money in the treasure fund." Queen Jupiter said. Makoto had a feeling that Judge Miyake would be saying something that she would not like. "Did you notice the way he looked at dad yesterday?" Mako asked. "Yes. It was not a good look." Queen Jupiter replied, "I noticed that look. You did too?" "Yes. Did you tell dad?" Mako asked eagerly. "No. I told you he will find out on his own eventually." Queen Jupiter said. "Do you think he noticed the looks?" Mako hoped. "I don't know." Mako finished eating and started out of the dinning room. She was planning on "listening" in on what her father and Judge Miyake. "Makoto! Don't even think about going in and eavesdropping on your father. I can see what you are planning to do." Queen Jupiter warned. "Okay," Mako said reluctantly. Her mother gave her a stern look and then left. Mako went outside for a walk. She hated it when her mother could read what was on her mind. Now this left her the rest of the morning to do nothing. Mako sat by the lake and watched some squirrels run up and around a big oak tree. She thought about visiting Usagi but then cancelled that out. She should be here just incase something happened. ** ** ** ** ** ** ** * * ** * * ** * * ** * * ** * * ** * * ** Mako hurried to the house. She never realized how long she was sitting outside. It was now well past lunch time. Why didn't anyone remind her of lunchtime? Mako walked into the estate. There were a few maids about dusting and everthing. "Where is my mother?" Mako asked a maid. "I don't know. I haven't seen her since breakfast." "Did you see my father?" "Last time I checked, he was in the study." The maid continued dusting. "Thanks." Mako continued walking to the study. By the doorway of the study, Mako kneeled down and put her ear to the door. She couldn't hear anything. Everything in there was deathly silent. She got up and turned the door knob slowly. She opened it a crack and looked in. From her limited view, she only saw the opposite wall. She opened it a little wider. She got a veiw of the leather armchair by the wall. By now, the door was halfway open already. Mako scanned the room. At the far end of the room, she could see something. Mako could just merely make out what that object half hidden by a item of clothing. It was her mother's shoe! She swung open the door and looked. Her mother and father were slumped in the corner of the room, unconscious or something. Their hands were bound behind their backs. Immediately, Mako ran to try and help them. When she was about halfway across the room, she heard the door slam. She spun around and looked right at the point of a long sword.... ***************To Be continued.............................. That's it for this chapter. If you're lucky, you might find the next chapter pretty soon. If you're not....we'll just find out what happens won't we? Jya ne! 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